Things

today was a very sad day for me. yes over the last 5-6 years my siblings have all slowly left me. and i have handled it very well in my own special way. many of you have not known the deepness of my sadness because i hide it so well. but in any case today i needed help moving a dresser from my house to moms and i called shauli to help and he said he would but he didnt have a car. i then called arye and he never even called back. i guess he was too busy. i didnt want to bother sim cuz it was goldas biorthday and david was working and shani was sick so he had to watch shilo. so i had to call 3 friends before someone was able to help and then i had to call a 4th person to actually get someone over here. i remember when just a phone call to my dear brothers would have had them dropping everything to come help me ( for just a beer) . and now i have been reduced to calling mere friends instead of family and it hurts. oh not as much as jumping on a bicycle without a seat but it hurts. none of you worry though, i'll make it through this like i have made it through everything else. (batch we took your dresser, thanks)