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Hey...I'm just trying to figure out life here a little bit... The two groups I was working with have finally left. I say finally because I counted down the days until they were gone. I am in education becuase I love working with and challenging and learning from teens/young adults... The last two months were spent focused on running two consecutive programs. I did not have a chance to really meet the participants as I needed to spend most of my time on the phone, computer or running between the two programs. After a month of planning and a month of running the programs I do not feel any sense of accomplishment. I think I have found something that I actually suck at. I am wondering if this is a foreshadow of next years program, and I am in the wrong field...I should just turn on the computer and work in graphics or the like, or if I just should chalk this up to more experience and i'll walk into the next program better prepared... I am actually at a loss of what direction to go in. Frusterated, Annoyed, and Discouraged all come to mind when I try to describe my feelings about the programs.